Meowths Bad Party Night

The thought will never leave me because the situation keeps repeating itself.

Why is it that my art and relevant decisions get criticized when I don't ask for any kind of feedback when there are worse artists than me, whether from their anatomies being plenty unbelievable, their coloring strokes looking less than professional, or they completely devote themselves to fandom OCs, porn, or a specific style THAT ARE TOTALLY LEFT ALONE TO BLISSFULLY ENJOY DOING WHAT THEY WANT?

I feel like I'm not even allowed to enjoy any praise I get because I'm supposed to improve and shit and hate my art so I can get better.

Why. Me?

Given a good third chunk of <lj user=silvercoindrive>'s friends list are from the sbg/dcs roleplay circle and updating/reverse-filtering that list will be a pain, I'll have to say it here.

Most of <lj user=diamondcity_rpg>'s entire Pokemon crew had ran off to their own musebox and never told me anything about it.  I've never felt so left out in my life as a roleplayer.

Also need new people to roleplay with in general.  I get too clingy with the same few people and Shocky aside, they're barely active and I'm left waiting hours for tags on the hours I can actually roleplay.   No fault to anybody, but I guess it's like preferring a local relationship/friends over long distance ones except replace "distance" with "time zones".  

So ronery.


I could always just wait until I get bored and go on indefinite hiatus again.  Immortal Fool is several days late because I got into roleplaying again. AHAHAHAHA....

I'm fine really. Except for that musebox thing.  I just miss having pretendy fun times with other people!